GENTE! ( o sea yo misma)
Creo
CREO
que por fin descubri el secreto para curar mi falso bipolar personality disorder
o borderline
o lo que sea
Y es que es muy facil
When I feel the blanket of despair and loneliness creeping in
which makes me wanna just crawl into the couch and do nothing but feel sad and guilty about feeling sad and guilty
I HAVE TO GET ANGRY
Getting angry is of the
UTTERMOST importance
because when I'm sad
I don't do anything
I can't do anything
Yet
When I'm angry
Oh boy do I do stuff
I get shit done
Recuerdo cuando tuvimos una clase en la escuela en la que nos enenaron unos videos de maltrato animal
and I can't remember ever being so angry in my life
and yes, I was angry about the animal abuse itself but mostly
what
the
fuck
do
they
need
to
show
me
those
videos
for?
WHAT FOR?
and I went home and I made a collage I was very proud of
I dunno where it physically is but I think I can find a picture
Aquí esta
and I have a very permanent memory of the feeling
the feeling I had before making this
and the feeling I had once I had done it
and it was totally different
but I've grown LAZY
LAZY and STUPID thinking that working and fucking mindfulness can make your bad feelings go away
WELL THEY CAN'T
or maybe yes but they're not for me
Entonces next time
I MUST remember
to get angry
very angry
at all the little things
I should start a new cult
Don't worry
Be angry