Fix This

And I can't rest for a second.

I can't take a breath

Because when I do all I ever seem to breathe in is you.

I can't see myself with anyone else.

I can't think of anyone else touching me

The sole idea upsets me.

It might even upset me more than it upsets you.

Perhaps what bothers me so much is...

That I´d swear you're better off without me.

And you just don't know it yet.

But I am not better without you.

My friends told me to remember only the bad things.

And I Can't. I won't.

I Want to. I try everyday real hard. I try to hate you. To be mad at you. 

Yet for some reason all I remember is how you made me feel like I was in a romantic film.

Like you'd have given your life for me, you'd have done anything.

I think I never liked romantic films. Because I Had my own. You were mine.

And now you're here but you're gone.

How the hell am I gonna let you go?

When I expect something from you the second I stop working.

Makes me think I took too much hours for all the wrong reasons.

Makes me think I took too much hours so I didn't have a spare second to think about you.

Even if it means having no life. I don't want no life. You won't be in it.

What's even worse is that I have tried not to call you. I have.

But truth is...I have called you.

I have called you more than once but your cell phone's been disconnected.

Your cell phone's been disconected. 

As usual. As always. And I can't blame you for it. I can't. Because it's probably not your fault. But whether if it is your fault or not doesn't matter... it's still the reason we're not together anymore.

It sucks. Not being with you sucks.

You are what I want, what I deserve. But Please Please fix things. Our love alone is not enough. You're enough but I refuse to have just half of you.
Fix things and tell me we´re good to go. Tell me now. Tell me now so I don't have to cry at Starbucks. So I don't have to call my friends and ask them to stop me from calling you. 

I should carry tissues with me at all times. I should put a box of tissues in the car.

Fix this...so I can call you and hear your voice...and not " El numero que usted marcó ha cambiado o se encuentra fuera de servicio"