More like you

 Look at me

drinking coffee

and reading a book

at 8:49 am on a Sunday

I'm becoming more like you

And I like it

I wanna live with you

 I wanna live with you

I want to buy 8 canvases

and paint songs

on the patio

during the summer

drinking beer or wine or maybe just lemonade sometimes

I want a professional camera

and I want to take the pictures of the you I see

that you can't

I want to have a job

and help people

and pay taxes

and maybe get a first mortgage which feels like a second mortgage

I want to go maybe to Peru (surprisingly)

and make you a sandwich

I want the Roomba to clean

and get that robot that sweeps too

I want to fight the HOA about the pool

I maybe want to continue teaching

firstly because I'm sort of addicted to it

and secondly because I've come to realize I'm pretty good at it

Dammit

I want to live with you 

in a normal life

so badly

that it almost makes me angry at myself

I want to join a gym

and exercise in vain

end eventually get a liposuction

because I already know that all the exercise I do will be in vain

I'll do it anyway though

I maybe want to take singing lessons again

because I really do like singing.

And art lessons and ESL

and Hebrew and French

I want to learn everything

except maybe...fencing

but we ca try fencing if you still want to

I want to live with you to eat boring food

and play videogames

and go hiking and wait for you

and eat a sandwich in the mountains wondering if a mountain lion is about to attack me

and thinking that, scary as that sounds, it would still be cool in the sense that I would have a great story to tell

except if I die of course

I want to eat at subway sometimes

or have a small bowl of chili maybe

Mostly

I just want to live with you

in a house

which we finally call home