https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M4yCwlDxPtY
I just watched this video. And it was perfect timing.
I wonder why I cry so much about this things. I cry in movies with Batman and Dragons and things that don't exist.
Maybe I cry over them because of the things that do exist. That I don't know in my brain...that I feel in my heart when I'm taken off guard and it makes me feel like right now.
So overwhelmed by everything and nothing all at once.
So lonely yet crowded.
I need to be with myself. I need to listen to myself.
And not have anyone question that.
Something inside me hurts so bad.
The last thing I need is to calm down.
But there's like a pain stabbing my back through my chest as if I was really hurt.
Maybe I'm really hurt in a way I'm not even aware of.