The Curled Hair Ruler

And It is true

I have become what I hate

And jealousy and enviousness will surround me forever

The riffs, the riffs, the boys, the kill.

The chase has ended

Yesterday I yearned to pull thy guts out
to hear thou pleading.... forgiveness and apologizement
Apologize for thy existance

For shadowing me
and becoming the ruler with which all shall be measured

I desire not thy desires
I desire my own desires to exist....

I don't have to believe no more
I need no pencil... to swear or curse

What I do need is a good night's sleep and to tire my ass off in the tread mill.

To spit these words out
with this freakishly small keyboard

And have a kid, write a book and plant a tree just to prove that I lived.

To feel that I lived.