I can't breathe
Lately
And I know
It's because
I've spent too long far from myself
And far from you of course
But mostly
Far from myself
My chest hurts all the time
Because of all the things I can't control
Exist all the time
It feels inescapable
I need
To have a safe place
To be myself
And drink green juice
And to be alone
So I'm not lonely
Anymore.